when fahmi becomes emo(rarely)

hey2..its mok again..i was just damn bored so just wanted to write out wadever comes into my mind..

well,pejam kelip pejam kelip,hari raya dah pon abes..i still rmbr the days when we were so excited cos puasa nak dekat..den our tawarihs,so much fun..mcm gathering gitu ehk..kalau dah lamer tak jumpe,tym tawarih mesti jumpe..our buka luar..den come hari raya,our maaf mafan thru smses,mcm touching lah..den came 27 oct,our fun filled jln raya..dulu sume single ehk..tapi tahun ni dah lain sikit..biase lah abg tu pakai biru,kakak tu pakai biru..lol..makak bapak abg tu pon pakai biru..mcm dah janji gitu kan..lol..well,i guess wad sm salim said was right.."dulu lain,skrg lain"..i guess we've grown up in a way or two..some bcum worst and some for the better..alhamdulillah..dulu mcm slalu lpak,skrg nak ajak lpak punye susah,masing2 bz..kalo trn pon,satu2 muke mendak..biase lah,semakin tua semakin bnyk problems yer..i understand..i oso have my own problems..tapi at least we still have the willingness to meet..maseh nak jugak jumpe2 ni..bagus lah kan!!

well,aku ni sekarang mcm dah confused giler babi ah..aku rase aku mcm kejar angin...dah kejar kejar angin,tibe tibe angin die hilang..den datang lagi angin die,and the cycle goes on and on..dats wad i'm feeling now..i really lyk her,and i want to get to noe more of her..tapi when reality sets in,it slowly fades away..qns like am i gd enuff for her?aku ni gemok siah,tak handsome, takkan dier nak?i'm out of her league lah,org mcm aku mane leh dpt die..u noe,dis things make my life headache..oklah now i make effort to slim down..jogging lah,pumping lah,crunches lah..skipping lunch lah..eating fruits everyday..dah penat2 buat ni sumer,my mom said i grew fatter..even my dad say..i'm gonna die if i go ns..omg!!sumtyms i think i'm quite ok in size..gemok lah tapi nt the potato couch kind..the bulky tough kind of gemok..bt sumhow when reality sinks in eh,wah i dun even dare to look into the mirror..frens say just go ahead and try..get to noe her..tapi the qn is,does she want to get to noe me?cos her ex's are all so handsome..if i was a girl i'd pick dem over me instantaneously..bt,if i keep thinking dat way,ku rase tak kahwin siah aku..oh well,..nasib badan lah kan..bile tiba masenye,tibelah..insyallah..

if she read this blog,aku sure paisey siah..bt i want her to noe the real me..nt the guy-who-want-act-macho-but-cannot-make-it guy in school that she sees..i think it's been 2 mths aready,bt i havent even had a single decent conversation wif her..dats how shy i am..arghh!!sucky man..and thanx to a fren of mine,things gt worst..thnx ah..tapi aku tak damn kau..lol..well,its all up to the almighty lah..may he be the one hu shows me the way..well,i hope its her..cos she's all i can think about right now..

well,sorry guys for the long crappy post..i noe its crap..and i noe,i talk too much..well,i wanna hear from u guys too..kalo korg ade story,post ah..mane tahu we can help..we are maka brothers after all,mestilah tlg menolong..lol..semoga korg doakan aku lah yer..tapi aku sendiri tak confident langsung..haha..till we meet again..

p.s: i may nt be handsome enuff,i may nt be thin enuff,i may nt be gd enuff, bt give me a
chance..and i'll promise u the time of ur life..(as if you'll evr read this blog)

-MoK-